Happiness, Healing

The secret of seeking

For most of my twenties and thirties (although I still have some of my thirties left) I have been a seeker. Always seeking something or someone, seeking my purpose, seeking my passion, questioning everything but never truly finding what I thought I was after.

There were times when I was seeking slow, and there were times I felt pressure and panic, because there was such a conflict within me and a deep desire to do something else. Those years I longed to find out what there was to be known, I longed to be somewhere else, be someone else, but I didn’t know what, where, who or how. So I kept running and seeking. I found bits and pieces of peace, some in yoga, some in meditation and some in life coaching. I sought answers and truths in spiritual books and in personal development courses, and although I felt I was making progress, the journey I was on came without an end in sight. --> Read more

Happiness, Life

Let’s talk about freedom

Something quite unthinkable has happened to me. I have returned to Europe, I have returned to a corporate job, and I am feeling incredibly happy about it!

People often ask me why I would want to give up my freedom and return to work. Why would I give up my life on a tropical island, far away, and return to Europe where it rains a lot and where the temperature hardly ever reaches high enough to wear loose dresses and flipflops. Why would I not want to continue waking up next to the ocean every day, but instead opt for spending my mornings in commuter trains to an office, similar office I so desperately wanted to leave four years ago? --> Read more

Life

Not confused, just awaiting

It seems to be confusing to people when you don’t fit into a ready-made-box. I have noticed how my very existence at the moment makes most people around me confused.

Yesterday I was walking with a few friends in the parks of Amsterdam, and while testing the local neighborhood Kombucha, I was rambling on about my current life situation. It went something like this:

No, I don’t have an apartment yet, because I don’t have a job yet. No, I don’t know what will happen to my love-life because we seem to have very different ideas about what we want to do next. No, I don’t have a career plan. No, I don’t know how things will unfold from here. No, I don’t want to go back to the island-life, because I have a distinct feeling I’m too tired for that shit. --> Read more

Life

The things we leave behind

When you lead an unorthodox, rootless and global life, things are often changing quite fundamentally. Today I’m looking to the ocean from my familiar garden chair and drinking my morning coffee from my cheerfully pink mug. Yet in a few days I won’t be here anymore. One adventure, one period of my life is ending, and it’s hard for me to process it.

Not because I am sad about leaving, but because the change is so big I simply cannot understand it yet. How one day I am in my tropical ocean front existence, and the next I roam the streets of northern Europe. I cannot feel sad about leaving, simply because I don’t understand the grandness of it all. --> Read more

Healing

I am my own guru

During the past years I have been asking for some practical spiritual guidance. Actually I was hoping this would come in the form of a person, someone who would be ahead of me in their spiritual journey, someone who could guide me and help me.

I thought once the student is ready, the teacher shall appear, right? And in my infinite wisdom I decided that I was ready. Now come on with the teacher, show up already! But as usual, Universe had other plans. Universe heard me, but delivered me the answer in its own way. --> Read more

Healing, Life

The silent whisper of intuition

The voice of the intuition is silent but it goes forth with the strength of the ocean. It is liquid, almost unnoticeable, soft and flexible, until it takes you over and washes you on the shores of your dreams. Sometimes you think you can ignore it, you think you can be above it. Steer better, know better. But no matter how stubborn you are, it will never leave you. Luckily, because we so desperately need it.

Intuition and its neutral voice

Recently my NLP teacher told me about different minds that we all have. We all have a positive mind, negative mind, and a neutral mind. We are all slightly tilted towards one of these, or more accurately towards either a positive or negative mind. --> Read more

Healing, Yoga

How sensitive souls can benefit from Yin Yoga

If you are anything like me (INFJ, HSP) you know how it feels when your nervous system is hyped up and over-stimulated. This can happen after a long day, or even after some intensive hours of stimulation, at which point I can usually kiss my concentration goodbye. I get short tempered, my body is tense and my mind feels frazzled and restless. Although I know I need to calm myself down in order to become myself again (or to do anything productive), once in motion, it’s hard to stop these wheels from spinning. --> Read more

Happiness

Gratitude – Start enjoying, details to follow!

Last week I started reading a new inspiring book, Radical Acceptance by Tara Brach, and in the beginning it mentioned an old story about a telegram sent to a family member which said “Start worrying, details to follow.” which reminded me of a dear friend called gratitude.

I had to chuckle out loud, because it sounds ludicrous and yet we do this all the time. We think our circular thoughts, probably thoughts that we have been thinking about over and over for years, worrying about some random future event, making up all kinds of ways that things could go wrong or just worrying without clearly knowing what we are afraid of. --> Read more

Happiness, Life

A goal worthy of your soul

I’m a big advocate of ordering fun things and life events from the Universe, and watching how miracles come into existence. I play and manifest a light and playful goal such as “please show me ladybugs” or “give me airfare to visit home”, and then there are the more serious, ‘real-life’ goals and ambitions I wish to achieve.

Recently I realized in one, tearful but strikingly clear moment the difference between goals, vision and the mission in life, and how these are linked. --> Read more

Personality

Highly Sensitive Person with an adventurous side?

Do you identify as being a Highly Sensitive Person, but at the same time you enjoy experiencing different sensations and adventures as well? You can be both!

Last year, I made some important discoveries about myself as an introvert and an INFJ personality type. Although I tried to take my introversion into account when planning my days, something was off. I had grown more and more exhausted and deflated, and I felt like I was overwhelmed and bored at the same time — at times all in the same day. In fact, I honestly thought I was going crazy. --> Read more